Shall We Pray?
Dear God, we are a hurting people. And because we hurt deeply, we have hurt others badly. We have perpetuated a vicious cycle of hurt. From the prisms of our own pains, that which we mildly survived, that which makes it hard to become spirited again, that which we have so sunk deeply in, from that painful past, from that hurting valley, we define our relationships. We have hurt the people we genuinely love with careless words. Acidic words. Vengeful words. Words we never meant. But vilifying all the same.
O God, help us. Heal us. Within. Many times, the things we say about people, the seeming envy, the quick snaps, it really wasn’t about them. Those words were the reflections of our own hurts and valuation of ourselves. We no longer have a healthy view of ourselves because of what life has thrown at us, because of what people have said about us. Those we gave our hearts to. And because we lack the requisite, inner will and goodness to extend positive courtesy and energy to fellow men, we advance a cycle that snuffed light out of our own souls. Lord, we just want to be bold enough to break this.
We want to be bold enough to say, “Hey son, I am sorry. I am the one full of shit.” We want to be bold enough to swallow our pride and restore broken friendships. We want to be bold enough to love and forgive ourselves. We want to be bold enough to cry and ask those we’ve hurt to forgive us. We want to be bold enough to find the courage to live beyond the past. We want to be bold enough to admit to ourselves that we can’t spread the fragrance of beauty if ugliness thrives on the inside. O yes Lord, hurting people hurt others. Help us to be bold, O Lord. We want to live again. To love again. To learn again.
We want to be bold enough to have our emotional banks credited with an overflowing graciousness of love and forgiveness. We want to be bold enough to dock sentiments and walk away from those who hurt us because of our misplaced love rhetoric. We want to be bold enough to say, “No more.” And as we walk the path of utter honesty and truth, may we find the healing and bond that our homes, hearts and relationships truly desire and deserve.
In Jesus name….